Against
Have you even gotten that feeling that reality just suddenly bites you? Where you thought, 'This would never happen to him or her', but it does. And suddenly you're at a lost. Suddenly this emptiness of reality swepts you off your feet (not in a good way), and suddenly you don't know what to do. That you can't do anything to help. It has always become one of my favorite sayings.. but i'll say it anyway. "Sometimes, people put up masks not to hide their face, but to see who cares enough to tear it down." That is what people may not understand. Something i also long to understand. There's this feeling of hopelessness, something you cannot do to help. The next thing you would be saying is, 'Why him/her? It shouldn't happen to them! It isn't fair!' But tell me, which part of 'Life isn't Fair' would people not understand? For now, the only thing i can do is hope and pray... Maybe if miracles can happen.. it may happen for their sake. I just suddenly got this feeling when i heard some... disturbing news. Shocked me into oblivion. And i will remember time and again, the times i say life isn't worth it, and yet here we are doing whatever we can to keep it. I believe that everything happens for a reason... and this reason may be what is changing me. It's almost like a sign. Something that i felt was missing is suddenly hitting me fullforce with a vengence, and the thing is that i don't have any idea what the thing is! And it's confusing me greatly. *glances up then sighs* What an angst entry... That's why sometimes i keep wanting to make a private blog so only people who don't know me can read it... Without thinking too much. Okay, maybe have a HAPPY part here! I'M THINKING OF DRAWING A PICTURE THEN CHANGING MY BLOGSKIN TO THAT! YAYYYYYYYYYYY! *breathes* XD Honestly... mood swings.
 Anway i wanted to post this picture for something, it's a picture of my class! BM0701! Yay I love everyone in it, even if i don't know them xDDDD Awww where's PANDA?! <- Our econs teacher xD Ahhhh another new template... This template... made me contemplate (no pun intended) for quite a while.... I mean, here i am in my blog screaming, squealing, whining ,complaining and just well.. sort of... Behaving like a little kid! So bleuh! *sticks out tongue* Anyway, yeah, here i am acting like 12 when the picture is like.. 'Listen to your heart... When he is calling you...' Like wooooo..
xDDDDDDDD But hey i like the picture so BLEUK again!
Super boring here in class. Though today was super fun! It's Jovian's (my classmates) birthday~ We had this HUGE (in my opinion) birthday celebration during our Microeconomics class! It was super super fun! AND WE TOOK THE FIRST CLASS PHOTO! <- Sounds so lan.. but *shrugs* first time for everything. So lately i've been super super busy. Doing shit and crap like homework, tutorials and projects and just stressing. STRESSING AND STRESSING OUT AND OUT AND OUT! <-THE WONDERFUL WORLD OF CAPS. So lately i've been wondering... and thinking... because now i'm in poly. Everything is so different. It's really, really different. People have plans, i have a plan to go as far as i go without... Well, we've been taught that many MANY powerful and rich businessman and so on, that they have to step on people to get to the top. I REFUSE! I WON'T BE LIKE THEM! I CAN'T! I WON'T!!!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! MY aim is to... erm, not so mean. Lol.... Please don't change =.=;; I hate change... Actually i'm crapping because i don't know what i'm doing. Just crapping haha. cause i don't know what to write. oh well...
I have DECIDED! XD To use this blog as my nonsense part where i rant on and on about my life. <- OMG SO INTERESTING! XD I'll use my livejournal for other things~ Wheeeeeeeee! Okay okay, my life....ehhhhhhhhhh.... It's still boring. School is getting more fun i guess xD With all my teachers being very very VERY funny xD They're really so interesting! It's amuses me so. xP Mmm... i had my Oral Presentation about... on Tuesday. That's four days ago? XD Yeah should be... Anyway, my voice was wavering like the Tsunami wave! <- Bad comparison, so bite me! D:< And i'm a total blur toot on Econ and mmm... oh yes Internet and Web Technology, is SUPER BORING AND I HATE IT WITH EVERY BONE IN MY BODY! SO THERE! DDDDDDDD: Caps.. gotta love it. ;) Ooo i've never talked about friends! My friends in Poly! They're so funny and cute! XD Not cute as in the 'ugly but acceptable' but as in cute, adorable cute? xD (Sheesh stupid 'ugly but acceptable' does ANYONE actually FOLLOW that dumb REAL meaning?!) Anyway... i guess that's what poly life is all about, meeting NEW people! Different types <- omg i make them sound like a species! D: BAD GIRL (ME)! I meant as in, new friends. xDDDD Baaah, i don't know what i'm saying. Anyway what i'm TRYING to say is that they all seem very nice! I hope i can get to know them all better ^^ (Kuso, it sounds like some cheesy pickup line! I'm NOT picking anything other than litter on the ground...) <-WTH?!~ Oh and it's erm, official. I'm MAD! <---- And everyone knows that... D:
STUPID SCHOOL! I CAN'T ACCESS FANFICTION.NET! It's dumb i tell you, dumb, dumb DUMB!! <--- ;A; (How am i suppose to read thy smexiness?!) Waaaah! Oh well at least i'm done with (mostly done) my disgusting internet and web technology project. It's hard since the websites given are like, total crap and they DON'T provide sufficient information and it's just so totally DUMB! Also the school internet speed is like a snail. Bah, i think it's better to write than to read in situations like these =.=;; I hope this entry doesn't mess up due to the blardy SLOW-ness. Anyway... once this is done i feel much more relaxed, later can go home.. Later.... LATER MUCH LATER! IN LIKE 3 HOURS TIME! Wth?!?! Baaaaah.... typing time. DDDDDDDDDD:
Gaaaaaaaaaaah! Headache already! <- DAMN YOU INTERNET AND WEB TECHNOLOGY! Yes i know i keep harping on this horrible subject, i just can't help myself alright! D: I have to do this STUPID project.... My topic is Indonesia and we are RESTRICTED TO ONLY FOUR BLOODY WEBSITES THAT WE CAN ONLY GET INTO IN SCHOOL! <- WTH?! Yeah... and the thing is, the stupid websites don't PROVIDE sufficient information and they keep bending about! <- Or maybe i just don't know how to search... *pulls out hair* It's terribly frustrating espeically the subject is totally IRRELEVENT to internet and web tech! They just trying to kill us with things we probably don't NEED TO KNOW! I can't find anything on IT Policy anyway! *runs around in circles* Oh, and everyone is getting sick! I really hope i don't get sick next... I HAVE A SPEECH TO MAKE NEXT WEEK! Please let me have my voice still by then! I really hope everyone gets better... DDDDD: Daddy, joey and mummy... AND i hope i stay well! Just me... totally against the world =.=;; <- what?!
Name: Crystal
Age: 17
School: Nanyang Poly!
Herm, *quote* treat others how you want them to treat you.*unquote*
To trust, i need to make sure that people are able to love, to care. Basically to be a normal human with emotions.
I am a FIRM believer of happy endings, if you think life sucks, your ending just hasn't come yet. :)
Computer games
Fanfictioning
Drawing
Writing
FUN
Anime
MY SACHI-CHAN![laptop]
Negativity
Homophobes
Bitter things
SASUSAKU (Cannot resist putting this...)
Reptiles
I want to wish for:
Doujinshi! <-bite me -.-
Okay to be totally honest, there's nothing that i really want. I already have everything i need :3
Lemme go find some pictures then maybe i'll post them here.
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